its 11:10 in the evening, and im still here in the office. a psycho adobe premiere keeps me and our editor hostage. rendering a 2-hour video did not seem forever a few hours back. but now that premiere decides to take on the "i have a problem that you can't fix" attitude, we have no choice but to be hopeful that after-effects would save us and keep us sane. at least until our deadline.
i remember being almost in the same situation last year, when i had to stay in late also for work. only the culprit then was microsoft excel. yeah, a passive yet tricky excel almost took its toll on me. it was my mistake though. i thought i covered everything for the day, only to find out later that night i missed out on something. desperate for freedom and rest (and john's companion too, actually), i cried, amidst people i've known only for a few days then.
now im thinking, "maiiyak kaya ako pag di pa to gumana?" we're on to our 6th or 7th try to render just the last part of the video, as i "speak." our fingers crossed that after-effects would grant us the freedom we need.
pero kung anuman, di na ko maiiyak (siguro). i've learned to be calm, to compose myself and say, "ganun talaga." wala namang choice but to take it all in, and finish it.
i've actually learned to apply this perspective to life as a whole (naks). and looking back, i feel i've grown partly because of it.
(to be continued)
a psycho adobe premiere keeps me and our editor hostaged 
